Erase me..

How long will it take to erase you...from me?
...as long as erasing the pigment from my skin, so too your touch.
...as long as erasing the colour from my eyes, so too the perfect vision I had of you.
...as long as erasing countless memories etched, so too the plans we made...our future.
...as long as unravelling every loc of my hair, so too the feel of yours between my fingers.
...as long as replacing every moment spent with baba, with something new and just as precious.
...as long as replacing my soul with another as it was attached to yours.
Erase me, erase me, erase me, erase me....

..indeed it is.

...cause I'm as fine as aged wine and will always be to he who requires me.
Forever willing but never needed, I will be FINE till the end of time.

The end indeed.

2012

"Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation. We must always be prepared for endless waves of transformation"

Attente..

La parole "je vous aime" n'entourera jamais la passion que j'ai pour vous.
C'est une simple baisse dans un rempli d'océan avec que qui vous appartient seul.
Le faire mal de mon âme, la palpitation de mon coeur, les soupirs exaspérés de mon corps qui a besoin de vous avec me.
Fermer vos yeux et me voit, me tous vous attendant.. mon "l'un" n'abandonne pas, je prie que qui est pourtant d'être.. que qui est signifié pour être.
Pour il y a non autre et j'à jamais aimerai.. elle qui porte mon coeur.

Fade

...it's all ended and I've no chioce but to accept blame.
Hands shaking still and can barely see through saturated pupils.
It hurts more than expected as I've been here before, but alone I'm not with no where to camouflage with the abstract.
Neck hurts...sign that my heart is in a quandry as it knows not how to glide along the rhythm set divine, in turn the pressure rises.
I can see my reflection in this screen..worn I am.
Not crying but tears keep flowing as though my heart's purging as sadness pours...My love is never enough..

Gone..

There are some things in life that just throws you for a loop, time and time again. I've been through that loop till it knows my every curve, dimple and crease. I believe in things whole heartedly and throw myself in completely on faith. What for... Why...cause i truly believed. I believed you loved me and the words you uttered you meant. I believed your promises to be true and held onto the faith i had in what i thought was a true love. But alas...I failed cause words are just words and action seems meaningless to the unwilling to trust. I'm weary...tired..burnt out. I cannot plunge through yet another loop.

To "Her"

I sit here..hands shaking, tired, soul bare and heart wilting.
I've been here before...
I can't hide.
You see through every facade, barrier with the silent stare of your hypnotic eyes.
Why am I here? In this spot where we should be...
It eludes me but...
I can't hide.
I want the silence we have where you feel my words and respond in kind
Should I wake you from your slumber as it is no longer mine?
I know not what, where, when, or why it came to this but..
One thing we've in common..
I too can't trust.